So, I\u2019ve decided to change the outlook of my blog to a simpler theme. With so many things at hand, I find it quite impossible to come up with long posts that I am quite well known for (ehems) so I\u2019d like to make things shorter and simpler and this is probably the right theme for now. I used to be able to write a blog post so effortlessly probably because I had all the time in the world to do all the thinking and put them into writing right on the spot. But then, I\u2019m afraid that has to change now. My life needs a little bit of adjustment. There are just so many things that I have to squeeze into this little head of mine so I can\u2019t really put them into my writings as easily and effortlessly as I used to. Uhuks.<\/p>\n
I\u2019ve been quite busy lately, I mean, I\u2019ve always been busy but these past few months have been quite a few notches up. My times have been pre-occupied by all these things surrounding this pursuit for a master in research that I\u2019m doing now, so much so that I\u2019d find myself breaking my back trying to dig for research materials whenever possible or I\u2019d get swept away before I could even catch up with this ever flowing thing called time, and sometimes I\u2019d find myself spending long long hours in front of my lap top trying to do whatever I can do before the next presentation (or I\u2019d end looking so stupid without nothing much to present out in front of my professors). One thing about doing a research is that, there are always deadlines to meet. I have no choice but making myself get used to it.<\/p>\n
And then, there are quite a number of people that I have to deal with almost constantly like my supervisors (lecturers) and dealing with these people are not that easy. These people are academicians so I like to believe that they have a very high level of intelligence. These are the people who know pretty much about everything, at least in the fields that they are experts in. But then, after dealing with them for quite some time, I have come to discover that they are just human beings. Things can slip off their minds too and I have to put these things back into their heads especially those things that concern me and my research. Heh.<\/p>\n
I mean, I\u2019m a working adult now so the approach is different from the time when I was still an innocent undergrad student back at the university. Back then, I couldn\u2019t even look straight into their eyes. I\u2019d go into their rooms with my shoulders intentionally slumped down so that they might sympathize and think twice before spraying bullets at me. I remember when I was doing my final year thesis and I came to office of my supervisor \u2013 a highly respected professor in the country \u2013 and he threw my thesis progress report to the floor and shouted \u201cYOU ARE FAILED! YOU CAN PACK YOU BAGS NOW AND GO HOME\u201d.<\/strong> I really didn\u2019t understand what he meant by packing my bags and leave but then I was so shocked I couldn\u2019t even say a word. In fact, I found myself shaking. I left with a lot of things going on in my mind.<\/p>\n I was in my final year so failing the paper means I had to extend another semester at the university. The mere thought of missing the next convo which means another long year of being a student was just unbearable (I was so eager to start working!). I couldn\u2019t even sleep for days. Of course I returned to him with a pledge to do the best I could to drag things up to his expectations. And I did keep my word even though it meant I had to spend many days of sleepless nights that there were times when I began to hallucinate from staying up for too long, even more than 46 hours straight. \u00a0That was probably the only time when I saw ghosts. They looked so real I really thought I could almost touch them. Jeez!<\/p>\n I passed the paper in flying colors and I told myself never to put myself into such a situation ever again. Then I found myself doing this master in research which seems to almost certainly bring me back to that situation again, hopefully, oh gosh hopefully, to a much lesser extent. Uhuks.<\/p>\n Of course, that story with my professor happened more than 10 years ago. Now that I\u2019m a working adult with quite a number of years of working experience tucked neatly under my belt, I\u2019d find myself talking and joking and laughing with my supervisors say, at a McDonald\u2019s for hours and I\u2019d even pay for the food so you know how people are gonna react and treat you when you pay for their food \u2013 lecturer or not lecturer. It does make a difference (I hope they won’t by any chance read this. LOL). I can even ask if they\u2019d ever find the time to have sex with their wives with so many lecturing and supervising works at hand. I mean, literally because we are talking about an adult-to-adult conversation here. LOL.<\/p>\n Busy might my days be, I try as much as I can to find the fun in all the things that I do now. I mean, it\u2019s not easy to stay positive all the time \u2013 it has its ups and downs \u2013 and not that I have not been warned about it before I took this challenge (my favorite word nowadays), in fact all of this was not unexpected, but then I have come to discover that there\u2019s always fun in everything that we do if we know how to find it. For now, I\u2019m just gonna do what I have to do and finish what I have started. Positivity is the keyword here right. Heh.<\/p>\n